band rant

well, in total contrast to cecilia, i am incredibly upset. in both meanings of the word!
i just had the most awful performance i have had in ages. not only was i feeling bad about the STACKS of maths homework, john had to yell at me every second piece. i'm serious; in schneewalzer i wasn't swaying satisfactorily, in all that jazz i was behind, in something i was apparently in the wrong key, and in something else he said something that i couldn't hear. then during break he took us all outside to yell at us some more. and the two people that could have made it half bearable weren't there; god knows why. probably work or some such pathetic excuse.
honestly, john'll be lucky if i come back to that band while he's conducting after this year at all.

i have a sac tomorrow morning, then some stacks of maths homework, then i go to see cecil, then i go to band all day sunday. then back to school to confess that i haven't finished all that maths homework, and beg her not too kill me. which might not work that well as i've begged her too much this past few weeks.

oh well, off too bed before i start crying and my family notices.